Rate your current mental health level out of 10

[undercoverbrother]

My mental health is all over the ####ing place.

In the last few months

- Daughter accepted into Grad School
- Massive promotion at work, I now run all of our Canadian business
- Son named to go to Canada Games
- Dad falls and has been in hospital 3 weeks
- Mum had to move in because she can't stay alone, so now I'm essentially babysitting while working and searching for a place for her and eventually my dad to live

It's been a ####ing lot.

[CM ONE]

Originally Posted by undercoverbrother

My mental health is all over the ####ing place.

In the last few months

- Daughter accepted into Grad School
- Massive promotion at work, I now run all of our Canadian business
- Son named to go to Canada Games
- Dad falls and has been in hospital 3 weeks
- Mum had to move in because she can't stay alone, so now I'm essentially babysitting while working and searching for a place for her and eventually my dad to live

It's been a ####ing lot.

We have a bit in common. I’m recently in charge of two facilities. My second oldest child is also a Canada Games athlete. My Mother’s health is in decline (father passed 30+ years ago) and my sister in Calgary must deal with it all. I’ve also got an alcoholic wife who has not been a wife really for 5+ years and a daughter in secondary doing well and a little hockey player who’s doing well in that sport. It’s been a circus lol.

[Finger Cookin]

Originally Posted by Finger Cookin

I'm usually a solid 6, I feel like that's true today.

Things aren't getting better over time. There's more 3s and 4s these days than there are 5s and 6s.

[Scroopy Noopers]

Been a week since I quit habitually smoking pot everyday, and as a way to get out on anxiety attacks…so I’ve basically been rolling from one to another for 7 days and just riding them out sober. . I am still happy with my decision and going strong though.

[missdpuck]

Deleted FB, think I’ll feel better now. Was tired of being told I should die, that I’m ugly, look old, whatever.

I recently came across something called self-abandonment. It seems to resonate with me.

A therapist I went to about 8-9 years ago suggested I do EMDR therapy. She says I am holding trauma from stuff that happened decades ago, specifically one incident, and that is keeping me from handling other issues in a healthy way. Anyone try that?

[Duruss]

Originally Posted by missdpuck

Deleted FB, think I’ll feel better now. Was tired of being told I should die, that I’m ugly, look old, whatever.

I recently came across something called self-abandonment. It seems to resonate with me.

A therapist I went to about 8-9 years ago suggested I do EMDR therapy. She says I am holding trauma from stuff that happened decades ago, specifically one incident, and that is keeping me from handling other issues in a healthy way. Anyone try that?

I have done EMDR and it's powerful stuff, however it's not as effective as psychedelic assisted therapy. It was that therapy that let me develop a sense of separation from the trauma.

[missdpuck]

Originally Posted by Duruss

I have done EMDR and it's powerful stuff, however it's not as effective as psychedelic assisted therapy. It was that therapy that let me develop a sense of separation from the trauma.

Yeah, I was wondering about psychedelics. I feel like I need to attach to a different reality, if that makes any sense. And now that I’m journaling about it, I fear the memories I’m bringing up may throw me into a black hole.

I don’t have one of those memories where I can pull up events by date or whatever, but I feel like I relive most of my life events every day. I briefly tried an antipsychotic to deal with that. The doctor said it wouldn’t work, but I just wanted something to shut my brain off for a while. But I will never tell anyone that again. I had an incident where I jokingly said, “Yeah, I once took meds that they give to schizophrenics!” Due to the situation, that did not end well. Of course if you say you are not schizophrenic, you are assumed to be a schizophrenic who doesnt want to take meds.

Uneducated deputy in somewhat of a police state doesn’t help.

What I do know is that I carry an intense amount of shame. Sometimes I wish I could just climb into the roof and yell out that I’m sorry for everything I’ve ever done or didn’t do; I just want out of the dark spiral.

I recently read “The Melting” and identified with that character, except I don’t want to hurt myself as an act of vengeance. For all the criticism it gets, I thought it was a good read.

The character is Eva; the book was written by Flemish author Lize Spitz.

[mogg]

Originally Posted by missdpuck

Yeah, I was wondering about psychedelics. I feel like I need to attach to a different reality, if that makes any sense. And now that I’m journaling about it, I fear the memories I’m bringing up may throw me into a black hole.

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What I do know is that I carry an intense amount of shame. Sometimes I wish I could just climb into the roof and yell out that I’m sorry for everything I’ve ever done or didn’t do; I just want out of the dark spiral.

MDMA-assisted therapy can be especially helpful for working with shame. It temporarily turns down this protective part so you can work with the stuff it’s protecting. There’s plenty of information out there about this; I think the Netflix version of How to Change Your Mind is a pretty gentle way in.

Personally, combining psychedelic-assisted therapy with microdosing and a regular, disciplined mindfulness practice has been the most important, transformative thing I’ve ever done.

[missdpuck]

Originally Posted by mogg

MDMA-assisted therapy can be especially helpful for working with shame. It temporarily turns down this protective part so you can work with the stuff it’s protecting. There’s plenty of information out there about this; I think the Netflix version of How to Change Your Mind is a pretty gentle way in.

Personally, combining psychedelic-assisted therapy with microdosing and a regular, disciplined mindfulness practice has been the most important, transformative thing I’ve ever done.

Thank you so much for this. It sounds like something that might work for me.

[mogg]

Originally Posted by missdpuck

Thank you so much for this. It sounds like something that might work for me.

Happy to help. Feel free to DM with any questions. I’m no expert but I can offer a few years of experience.

[missdpuck]

Originally Posted by mogg

Happy to help. Feel free to DM with any questions. I’m no expert but I can offer a few years of experience.

Thanks. I found that doc on Netflix and will watch tonight.

[afc wimbledon]

Originally Posted by Duruss

I have done EMDR and it's powerful stuff, however it's not as effective as psychedelic assisted therapy. It was that therapy that let me develop a sense of separation from the trauma.

I have thought about this as I live with a low level of PTSD and depression, I worry that my disfunction is what enables me to be a foster parent though, that no one healthy would do what I do and it's better to leave all the grim crap I have seen and been subjected too deep in my bowels at least until I retire