Join Date: May 2004
Location: @robdashjamieson
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Open Appology To The CPHL
Hey guys,
I figured that I would appologize for my mood over the last week, as I've been dealing with a lot of physical and emotional stress, the least of which stressing me out is the Quebec Nordique.
I'm not a fan of dumping actions on excuses, but I did want to let you guys know where my head is at.
My wife and I had planned to go to Edmonton for a visit to her aunt and uncles place Saturday afternoon. Friday, after work, my mother called me to inform me that while still alive, my Grandfather was not waking up from his sleep. He had been dealing with decreasing health for quite some time. His doctors say that it's usually not a good sign.
That night, around midnight, I got the call.
Saturday morning, I still had to work my shift at the bank, as there was no way I could call anyone to cover for me, and my sched was full. Something I didn't want to do, but had to do. We left for Edmonton an hour after I got home from my shift.
The trip to Edmonton was a good way to keep my mind off things, but it was the first trip with my son I'd been on, and sharing a double bed with my wife, and a cranky child led to lots of lost hours of sleep. Nothing that was helping the situation.
We got back into town on Tuesday, and as I was writing the speech I was asked to present at my Grandfather's funeral the next day, and coordinating plans with my brother to get down to Claresholm, that's when I got the PM from Grant about what was happening in the league, and that as far as the CPHL was concerned, I was homeless...
Wednesday seemed to be going good, as I got to talk to family that was spread out over western Canada, but when it came time to do my speech, I was a wreck. You try and pump yourself up to be strong, and not make a fool of yourself, but I couldn't help it, as I lost someone I looked up to, and loved.
Thursday, I was back at work, handling everyone in the branch asking me about my Grandfather, and how I was doing. Appreciated, but after about 5 or 6 people in a branch of about 15-20... it was taxing.
I haven't slept well, the last few nights have resulted in headaches, and I'm sore and physically wiped. My emotions haven't quite settled down, as I still miss the guy, and can't believe he's gone.
I thought by being more active on the board would help, but I know I crossed the line with one of my comments. It was said with half humour, but it wasn't my place to say when it comes to the other half.
So, for my actions... I do whole heartedly appologize to anyone whom had their button pushed, or if I crossed you the wrong way over the last few days. Over the last 4 years, I've developed great friendships within the CPHL, and I hope people understand that I wasn't trying to diliberately piss anyone off.
I am going to take some time to collect my thoughts, my scattered brain, and try to get my head back on straight. As I've said in other posts, I understand and accept HOs decision, regardless how hard it is to see the last 3 of 4 years be picked appart.
I hope people understand I'm not usually like this, and I'll be back to my old self, and back into the CPHL when the time is right.
Thanks...
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