[CaptainCrunch]

I'm glad to see that there are some good discussions going on here. I guess that was partially my intention, but also I needed to vent.


How am I?


Its a question that I've gotten over the last couple of days. I don't know how to quantify it, or fold it or bend it into a shape that's useful. I feel more angry then anything. I'm mad at the situation, I'm mad at the family member, I'm worried about the people that he he's hurt or effected their life and their mental state.


When people say they're not in a good place right now, I used to think, that its something that they can work through or get better with the passage of time.


With everything that's happening in my life over the last few months, I feel like that tunnel isn't going to end, or that I can't stop being angry.


I know its going to end, and that there's some kinda metaphysical bandage that can be applied to the recent cuts in my life. I just want to know when.


I use a lot of movie stuff. I still remember a segment from the movie Leap of Faith, when they talk about a town that hasn't gotten rain in a long time and their crops won't grow. Steve Martin sermonizes and asks the question


"when you say to me Jonas, when's it gonna rain"


"all I can say is when's it gonna stop"