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Originally Posted by Hemi-Cuda
the one real fear i had as a kid was one or both of my parents dying. you'd hear those news stories about kids being orphaned when their parents were in a bad car accident and it terrified the hell out of me to think of that happening. and then when i was 18, my mom died and i was forced to confront my greatest fear head on. i've never felt as emotionally devastated as i was in the days/weeks/months after. after going through that any little fear i might have had before seemed pointless
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I admit that I presently have this fear. Being the youngest of 5 in my family, apart of me still believes that I'm still the "baby" even though I'm in my early 20s. Despite the fact that I live far from them I still have this sense of dependency (kind of like what a young child feels for their parents). I always call my mother a few times a week and discuss with her everything that's going on in my life. Recently, my parents just became seniors in the eyes of the government and it's sort of hit me like a gust of wind. I started to realize that one of these days, they're going to have to go.
In February my grandmother passed away and it was the first time that my mom lost one of her parents. Seeing the heartbreak that my mom felt was probably the hardest thing I've had to witness as a son. Thinking about it also made me realize just how unprepared I am for something like that. I know people eventually adjust when it happens... but for me it just seems unfathomable and absolutely terrifying.