Honestly that was a year from hell for me, I had so many things happen that I was completely angry all the time, and honestly there were times when I was looking for an exit. I think I talked about that year here, because for the most part CalgaryPuck can be a great sounding board, and I got some great advice from people that probably in a sense did save my life (I dealt with losing my job for 7 years, Al passing, and the suicide of a close family members, all like bang bang bang). So to an extent, I've felt a bit of gratitude to this community. I can also say, that I'm glad that I'm still here (life, earth)
Part of me had tried to put Al out of my mind, he was gone. I know its unfair, and it sounds callous.
I will say that the amazing thing was that there was a really large celebration service, gathering for Al, I was happy to see hundreds of people show up for a celebration of his life. A lot of the players that he coached showed up. Pretty much the entire football coaching community was there. I got to reconnect with a lot of people that I hadn't talked to in a while. It was so nice to see.
But when this news came out, I was really upset and angry for most of the day, I had literally zero focus. I didn't know the other two victims that well. I had met his wife and chatted with her at football games on Saturday, because I always spent the day at Shouldice, whether I was coaching a game or not. I'd always sit with Al and his wife for a while. We'd chat football, enjoy the games talk about the players, and just genuinely have a nice time. When I was coaching with Cowboys Grey, He was on the staff of the Cowboys Navy as the Receivers coach, so we coached together during combined practices except for Rivalry week when Grey would Play Navy, and me and Al and the other coaches would play up the rivalry, it was fun for the coaches.
Have I found some level of peace, not really, but I think by now the one thing I know, is I'm not an at peace kind of guy. But I'm happy that the families that were affected by this will at least get some sense of closure once the sentencing is complete and they won't have to sit through a trial.
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My name is Ozymandias, King of Kings;
Look on my Works, ye Mighty, and despair!
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