Thanks guys, I truly do appreciate it. I know it is difficult to offer advice when you don't know the situation completely, but is nice to get some feedback and allow for a little venting.
A couple of points...
1) Yes, my boss "leaves me alone" and is not the proverbial control freak. However, I can only do tiny bits...until well she puts up roadblocks. This program needs a MAJOR overhaul (honestly, I think it would be best to "shut it down" for a bit, reorganize it, and then have it back up and running but that's the ideal, not going to happen!).
It is the first time that I have had a boss that just let's me ramble on about my ideas, etc, says "hmm...uh huh...thats a good idea...let me think about it...etc" and then proceeds to do nothing! This I find frustrating.
I have taken a "just do it" approach, but the changes that I think are needed - are the ones that are beyond my scope (i.e. major program changes, direction of the program, etc).
I guess its just my first experience with a boss like that.
2) Its compounded by the fact that the job i left I LOVED! Absolutely loved. It was a GREAT job...that was fun and exciting. I had 2 co-workers who were my age, worked with youth. Sometimes my job was more exciting than my social life (well not quite, but you get the idea). So maybe I am unfairly comparing it to it.
3) Yup Cow, I am the type of person that not only wants to do a good job with exactly what my job entails, but ALSO ways to greater enhance and increase the effectiveness of things overall (my program, the agency, etc).
4) My ethics/morals get conflicted...and I am HORRIBLE at office politics. Horrible! These 2 things in mind, I have an extremely (!!) hard time playing the game of "well ms. boss, you are horrible at what you do.....but I'm going to do the work that will make you look good and you will get credit for work that you don't do!". Thats just life I guess, but does it mean that I can't strive for that type of change as well?
5) I feel that I have not had a proper orientation (I know my office, bathroom and mail room) all the way upto being abandoned if you will. Within the 3-4 months I have been here, I have had the no orientation, a practicum student put onto me (with ZERO support from anyone else), a new volunteer starting up with my program (again, with ZERO support), another practicum student to start up again in half a month, etc etc...and a major re-accreditation of the agency and program coming up.
It just seems that I am getting too much stress almost right off the bat. Now I can see why (for example) in the past 6 months or so, they have had 3 or so people in this position!
I know that I should just suck it up....but its just hard. Especially when (they don't know, but) I know that I will be gone almost as soon as I start (from now, its give or take 6 months).
Ok sooooo sorry for such a LONG rant....but I am just really, really frustrated! I have never been this frustrated before, and its making me almost not ccare to an extent. This from a person who is a bit of a work a holic, strives towards working the best that he can, etc etc...
Ugh!
Ok sorry for that...