I'm laying in bed with my six year old son who is crying himself to sleep as we had to say goodbye to our 13 year old dog today. She had developed two masses that finally grew enough to put pressure on her lungs making it difficult for her to breathe. I have been preparing for this day for a while now but when two young children are involved you can never really comprehend how it will go.
I held my dog in my arms as they put her down. That is an experience that I never want to go through again. With everything going on in this world I am just so broken. I have tried to remain brave and stoic for my children but I just couldn't do it. Today will be the hardest day, I know that. I know for sure that the time was now and that I ended further suffering but man my heart hurts.
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