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Originally Posted by undercoverbrother
Yeah, I already got a lot of bad things crammed deep down in the pit, I'm running out of room.
A wonderful member on this board sent me a PM when I posted that I realized I needed help.
I still have reached out to his recommendation.
It's just, i kinda want to see some wins, to help me know it gets better.
Not sure if that makes sense or not.
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The rainbow comes after the rain. It does get better.
Not to be a whiner, but 2025 for me was comical levels of ####ed... One child was in and out of hospital and had to go for a battery of tests with reoccurring discomfort after the entire entire family had pneumonia. The other child, completely unrelated to the pneumonia, let's just say there were about 6-8 months were there was worry that we as parents might potentially be burying a child. Work stress for both spouses... is it normal to not have work stress? But yeah, we both had some unique and crazy work stresses that people don't typically have for months on end. Stresses from life stuff such as this has hit my wife hard, long story short, she got scolded by the doctor and she has to address some lifestyle stuff immediately or she's going on medication to prevent serious threat to life risks. A break in/petty theft happened. This bull#### ride excludes random other random "normal" daily stresses in general that still happened (ie: vehicle issues, finances, illnesses, visiting friends and family unexpectedly in hospital, repairs/renos, activities etc.)
As of January this year... Specialists have no clue what ails both children, but ruled out all concerns with threats to life. Yay! Work... the water ain't as choppy as last year... for now. As the wind blows. Lifestyle changes, working at those with the wife. We doing a bunch of self care exercise stuff. She really gets on my case when she's the one who needs it more, but I'm lucky she cares about my well being. Average sleep at night might be a few hours higher per week. Yawn. And a bunch of the typical life stuff is less stressful now than a few months ago. Like relief after avoiding catastrophe on a motor bike with the wobbles. Things are better and still pushing hard towards being even better.
I ain't relaxing yet, but things are certainly a heck of a lot brighter right now than a few months ago. A few victories goes a long way to give momentum to get out of an ice rut to drive out of the bull#### blizzard and just like when it rains, it pours, little victories can also come fast. I typed up some of these thoughts in this thread a few times over the last few months, but didn't post it. Typing it out made me feel better. I know I have posts that are a lot and it just seemed comically impossible to basically have a thesis of crazy things as to why my 2025 sucked.
I also didn't want most people that interact with me to change the way they behave. For my wife and I, having groups of people that behave like things are totally normal was a bit more cathartic than having all friend groups be like, "OMG. I'm here for you." if that makes sense. Normalcy was part of the mental help we were striving for and we did have a support group we shared these struggles with.
I still got a bit more driving out of the bull#### blizzard to go, but probably this summer, I'm going to take some time to sit down and address stuff in a similar manner to the Bill Burr clip. But for now, still want to continue to be semi numb and march forward as fast as possible to get a bit further out of the bull#### blizzard before letting my guard down.
For sure though, I know it's better and it's going to get better. The windshield is bigger than the rear view mirror.