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Originally Posted by fotze2
Is there like an opposite side of the Autism spectrum? Where you are too aware of others social cues.
I can immediately go through a trillion scenarios in my head as I talk to someone. I see them glance at someone and act different and I can immediately think of a thousand scenarios.
If I sense anyone is just the least bit uncomfortable or angry or frustrated my mind will panic mode it. Joking is obviously the easiest choice to audible out of it.
But I know that persons religion, or life situation, or quirks or political leaning, that helps tailor it, because offending would be the worst thing on earth.
As I talk to people I will analyze how I say it and how I should have said it better. I talk all day long to people on the phone trying to get more oil and gas and motivate people and mentor young guys.
I will talk to people and make a joke and then within seconds imagine a scenario where I am an aspiring stand up comic trying to build my set and break down what I just said.
If anyone I know is struggling, I lose my mind., my buddy's wife suddenly went to rehab and they told him he was the problem and has left him and he is a total mess. Not my problem but that does not stop me scouring my brain all the time to help him out. Buyng him gift cards so he doesn't have to cook fr the two kids she has left him with.
All day long starting at 3:30 looking at my new wells making 1500 boed baby.
I am exhausted by the end of the day and a POS to my own family because I am like Bob Geldof on the wall sitting on the couch not wanting any stimulous.....because I have to earn.
Thats why this place is a bit of a respite. I can scream at the skies and barf out dumb crap and maybe get some laughs. Getting laughs is my favorite thing in the world.
Anyway, back to work.
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Lexapro helped me immensely with rumination. I mean changed my life