[Locke]

Originally Posted by fotze2

Ahh Fack. I quit last week and it went really bad as I’ve probably mentioned. Have had a rough couple years, both parents dying and dealing with it with it. Seeing mom do assisted suicide I was woefully unprepared for.

Dying a couple times this year for a surgery I’ve been dreading my whole life my mother put a massive fear in me about since I was 3. Breathing machine for close to heart transplant for 6 hours. My appetite has totally changed nd hate food I previously loved. Skinny as ####. Have to provide for these three boat anchors around my neck who don’t seem to give a fata who have a pretty decent life.

Cpunselling is an absolute joke last clown talked about mee needing to take vitamins and supplements the whole time. Are you kidding? Vitamin b+ is not enough to deal with the crap in this head. Can I journal more? Are you a clown?

Fataing molested as a 10 yr pretty heartily that is start to rear its head. Guess you can’t ignore that for 40 years plus. That seems to be the limit. If you joke about it, it didn’t happen is my rule. Being a people pleaser is the worat curse you can bestow on someone.

I’ll probably delete this in regret soon so best read it. I welcome some humour at my expense.

Wish you the best man. Call me this week.