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Originally Posted by Inferno
Tell me about it. It took me ten years and thinking I would be moving to Calgary anyway to tell one of my friends that I had serious feelings for her after she just got out of a 6 year marriage. She's not ruling out us ever starting something and said that she wishes I would have told her alot sooner because I would have been a way better boyfriend than some of the guys she has dated but right now is a bad time because she's barely at home because she's in a busy time of the season at her accounting job and she's still a bit soured with relationships after getting out of a marriage she should have never got into in the first place.
Like you I seriously regret to this day not telling her. I'm not going to say that she's 'the one' because I really cant say that until we actually did date but I've never met a girl that I thought blew her away. I wasnt deliberately comparing every girl to her but I think subconsciously I was. After she had her daughter four years ago I tried making myself think I was over her but it would come out sometimes when I would go out drinking with my buddy and see a girl we went to school with. Up until a few months ago we only saw each other maybe twice in those four years so there was no constant reminder for me so it was easier to hide.
But it all came back about a month after we started keeping in contact again when she told me she had a date that I know now wasnt serious but she didnt want to hurt the guys feelings so she agreed. I got that same kicked in the gut feeling that I got in grade 11 when I found out she had a boyfriend right when my confidence was high and I was days away from telling her. Unfortunately for me that confidence never came back.
I still hope that eventually I can have my chance with her and that not hounding her to give me a chance will lead to good karma but I'm not holding my breath. Chances are that even if she does decide that she wants to date again that it'll be some other guy who is the lucky one. I'm trying to finally move on but it's not like a switch you can turn off.
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It's not a switch to turn off, but there are always times when it seems like hitting the dimmer switch is the way to go. Hindsight is always 20/20, I do truly hope that you both get the chance to see what could be one day, and just remember that "one day" is not a specific term, so if you can be okay with "one day" being tomorrow, next month, next year or five years from now, than that has to be good enough. I do think that the raw feelings that you describe when she tells you about something as simple a her going on a date and your reaction is so authentic, for lack of a better term, and that it probably means that there is something to the fact that it's been so long...so hold on!!
