[Fuzz]

Unfortunately you can't read the full series without a subscription, but the stuff you can read is a hell of a ride. TLDR; is check the "dr's" reputation before letting him drug you...


one, two and 5 are free
https://isabelkaplan.substack.com/p/ketamine-diaries
https://isabelkaplan.substack.com/p/...ne-diaries-cdf
https://isabelkaplan.substack.com/p/ketamine-diaries-5

Spoiler!

I wake up alone. Again.


I’m in the cat room this time. It’s late, past 8pm. The receptionist is gone, her computer monitor off. There are two bottles of ketamine on her desk. The waiting room is empty.


I open the door to the little blue room and find a passed out man lying on his side, body pressed into the couch cushions. He looks unwell. I close the door immediately, go back into the cat room, sit down on the couch. Wonder: did I really just see a man in there?


There’s a slightly surreal feeling that lingers at the end of a ketamine trip. The world seems bright and slippery.


Maybe I imagined the man, I think. Surely Dr. K didn’t leave two incapacitated patients alone in the office.


I go back out, look around more carefully. I open the door again: yes, there’s the man. I haven’t seen what other people look like while they’re on ketamine, but my understanding is they usually lie still, on their backs. There’s something alarming about the way this guy is collapsed.


My first thought: this can’t be real.


My second: this can’t be right.


But what do I know about the ketamine scene?


I just know the way that guy is lying there looks bad, and there’s something wrong-feeling about the way we were put in different rooms and knocked close to unconscious with a combination of shots and lozenges and then left alone in an office building so after-hours empty that the custodian has just arrived to clean. She looks as startled to see me as I am to see her.