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Mavi Diary - Day 6

Dear Diary. Let’s talk contracts today. It’s a big, big deal right now.

I’ve got the mgm gambling one, go auto, McDonald’s, Cibc, body armor, adidas, upper deck, and a few others that I’ve forgotten about. The acting gig is so easy; they just ask me to be myself and I bust out my middle emotion “meh”. People go crazy about my meh! They say things like “Connor makes cardboard feel alive” and “Connor shows that wood can have a personality too”! Honestly, this stuff makes me feel great because has this ever been said about Brad Pitt?

Leon’s a bit #jelly about it all. He signed with sports interactive gambling and skip the dishes. You will notice diary that these are inferior to mine. He’s not the jolly fellow that gets portrayed out there in the media. I know he comes off as a big fun laugh a minute guy and all around prankster but that’s just not true.

He’s not happy about my bff Austin, I know that. I had to speak with Leon a few times to explain that he’s my bestie during hockey season but I have a life away from him too. The last time I had to fib a bit and tell him that it was me, not him, but it’s actually him. We shared some tears together that day, let me tell you. I said that the longer we stay in the playoffs, the longer our relationship for the season lasts. He said that he understood that we each needed our space to grow but he didn’t want to grow apart. I told him that Austin and I were just friends and that there was nothing going on, and that Leon and I were teammates, but I think Leon suspects something because he asked if Austin had dinner at BPs with Brad and I. I told him no, of course not, but I didn’t want to upset him more so I didn’t mention the ice capades. I told Leon that he was my in season bestie, not Austin.

You know when everybody thinks that we are in the huddle before a face off designing some new play? That’s Leon trying to make me jealous by talking about parties and inviting guys over to try on his skip the dishes life sized bib. I’ve tried it on when Leon wasn’t looking; no big deal but it does smell of bratwurst, mustard, and sauerkraut. Seriously, we make face off plans before the game. It’s literally a face off which happens hundreds of times! Leon’s face off strategy is to skate forward and hold and fall on the other guy, so you know that isn’t what we talk about. I’m a bit jealous myself because he talks to teammates like friends, and I haven’t yet found a way to break the ice to talk to any of them.

That’s my biggest regret of the last few seasons. I didn’t have the courage or opportunity to speak to any of these players on the team and now they are traded or Stan sent them away. How will I ever get my courage back up?

Leon is a bit clingy. He told me that he only signed long term because he thought that was what I wanted. I told him that I just want him to be happy with himself and to find his own way, both with and without me. I told him that we need time apart, but then he passes to boo boo who gives it to the other team and they score and Leon and I are back together because Leon begged coach knobby. I told Leon that he was too good for me and I was holding him back, but he just cried and said that we can stay together longer as season friends if we play together and score together. He even said that he would be happy only getting secondary assists!

It’s enough to break a monochrome heart.

I’m not sure what to do; do I commit to the future that Leon and I built together or are we stronger apart? Will I watch him on ivanka and Ken’s show and be proud of him, together apart, or will I yearn for our times together winning me awards?

I need time and space away Diary. I’m sure glad that you and Lenard dog are such awesome communicators.

I’m tearing up like when I was gifted to the Oilers like an nhl sacrifice.

Talk tomorrow.