[undercoverbrother]

It's ####ing hard.

For so long in my life I couldn't keep weight on.

Through my teens/twenties/thirties I fought to gain and hold weight.

It was ingrained in my brain to eat and eat a lot and eat anything. I was so active that I burnt through calories with no concern.

I was very fit and lean and strong.

In my forties, I started to slow a bit, but was still very active and weight really wasn't a concern.

I was still fit, a bit less lean, but strong.

At 48 I got slew footed in a hockey game and a dormant condition manifested in my neck affecting my left arm, neck and upper back. In short, it was 2 debilitating years of constant pain and discomfort. I stopped training.

I got weak, I got fat.

The issue is my brain feels hardwired to eat. For some many years all it told me was to eat and eating was fine.

I feel like at 53 I really need to re-train my brain.