I don't know if this is oversharing, but here I go anyway. When I was in my early 20s, I was in a very similar position to where you are now. I was working at hospital security, and while I was good at my job, I didn't have any real satisfaction, and I was really depressed about everything that was happening.
I still remember the feeling of one day at work when my supervisor made me write out a list of my personality faults. It really ####ed me up hard to the point where I was pretty convinced that it wasn't worth living anymore. At this point I managed to find support systems (similar to what you are doing right now) and slowly started to change things. I gave up on my initial goal of becoming a police officer and started working towards a new goal of working as a nurse. Things still aren't perfect in life but I look back to that dark spot where I was and it sounds a lot like where you are right now. I don't know if that helps or not but if you want to send me a PM and we can talk off line about things.
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