Hitting another low point
I was the one who made a post simply stating “I hate myself.”
This time around, I have people verbally saying the following phrases to me (it’s my parents; I have to confess that Ive been diagnosed with a developmental disorder that slows my progress to becoming independent unlike other neurotypical people):
“You’ve been a complete waste of our time, money and effort. You always are working a dead end job (I’m a pharmacy assistant btw). It’s not paying you enough money ($17/hour). What are you going to do with your life? Two years of grinding with your studies to become a licensed pharamacist only to come up as a failure. I can’t believe how much BS you put on us!”
These are the words my mom said to me. This all stemmed from an argument between me and her regarding how I should approach practicing for my oral test to become a pharmacist.
If my parents have become sick of my existence as a mentally slow (I could say the R-word but that ruins my already low self esteem) person, I’m starting to wonder if it’s worth continuing on in this world.
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