The hardest thing I've had to deal with in my life is my Moms passing. She died of pancreatic cancer just before my 1st son was born, 8 years ago. It hurts and sometimes, for whatever reason, it feels like I lost her only yesterday.
In the middle of the night my little girl had a dream where she saw her grandma but woke up crying, telling us she couldn't hug her. It's a double whammy because my little girl doesn't understand, and misses the idea of having her grandma. And she knows it hurts her Dad too. Seeing her hurt and upset then sends me spiraling on my own. Like why the #### did this have to happen to my Mom. She's missing out on so much.
I don't have a point to this other than, losing a parent is hard. Especially your mom.
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