I can’t read this thread. Only post. Hits too close. Thought mental health was nonsense. I have a heart valve I defect that since age 4 I’ve been told I’m gonna need open heart surgery, so I’ve lived like I’m gonna die at 50. Now I do 1 year tests MRIs and I absolutely terrified. Doctor appointment next week. I will not sleep and have not slept for months. I get tired way too easily but I’ll lie to the doctor because I’m a #####. Trying to sleep is a horror movie. There’s those three seconds when you wake up and your hard drive doesn’t load yet and the memories aren’t in there yet. Those are good minutes.
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