Divorcing/ Separating can be the most inexplicably lonely thing that happens to a man.
For whatever reason, we do not create the same kind of emotional community or support system.
What Jiri said was bang on, the hardest part can be little moments in your life you do not get the share with that person who is no longer your partner. Little things they might find interesting or funny.
In my experience separating was extremely isolating. It is something you have to fight through. Go and do things alone, join activity groups, set up a new (healthy) routine where you see the same people in the same place, even if it is just the guy you buy coffee from, or the same clerk at a grocery store. Build yourself a community of people who would notice if you disappeared, people who look forward to seeing you.
Saying it gets better with time is like getting a handshake when you need a hug, but its true, and there is no rush. It's been 6 years and still sometimes I get a little sad about it ( even with a new wonderful partner). You never forget being in love. That said, life is long and beautiful, and suffering is unavoidable.
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