Today? Maybe a 5...right in the middle. I've talked about my struggles here before. I still struggle with finding a purpose for the rest of my life and if there was a way to give my years to to someone with an incurable disease and no future, I would. I'm in serious need of a holiday. Since my folks sold their place in Phoenix, I haven't had a place to escape too. I work 6 days a week and my one day off is usually errands.
I haven't been to the gym in over a month because I was sick and that seemed to sap my will to go back. My body is falling apart with joint and hip pain and I may have to quit playing goal because of it. I wish I had more friends that actually cared about how I was doing, but most don't want to get into it.
I just have alot of days where I wonder what I'm doing here....
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