[TheScorpion]

https://twitter.com/user/status/1689673480436846592

Part of the interview translated from Swedish:

- It was a very challenging year for me personally. These are things that have been going on in the family for many years but which escalated to get worse and there were mental and psychological problems I suffered from, says Kylington after a completed ice session in Segeltorp.

- I think I deal with the problem like maybe everyone else does, by just sweeping it under the rug and putting the lid on but for me it led to mental illness and I felt very bad about how I dealt with my problems and almost went into the wall and felt that now it's enough... I needed to "face" these problems we had as a family and today I am incredibly grateful for this journey I started and then had to finish.

- I learned a lot about myself and I learned to understand that fears about one's problems are only guided by one's own shame and I had trouble putting my feelings into words because I was so ashamed of the problems I had with my family. I am incredibly grateful for how many people supported me and helped me get the right help. I really feel like I did myself a big favor.

- I just want to play hockey, but when something else in life eats you up from the inside, I just felt that I couldn't focus on the right things and I needed to go back and prioritize what needed to be fixed.

- I never understood how a process with a psychologist would behave, but it was also a journey in itself to understand and learn to put one's feelings into words and learn to communicate things to strangers. But I quickly understood that it was not a sprint but a marathon and it was hard on many different levels. I missed hockey and felt a big question mark on many levels what the hell really happened...it was CBT and that turn in psychiatry.

- It was definitely a fear to share things that are so close to one's heart but I have said that I do not want to go into details about what happened but it was a great shame I had to talk about things like this. Society is programmed not to display negative emotions. People think it's not okay to feel bad. I used escape behaviors when things get in front of one's face because it's the easiest way out. I quickly understood that when you dare to show yourself vulnerable to other people, you really get closer to people. It is more a sign of strength than weakness.

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How are you today?

- Fantastic, absolutely fantastic. I feel great and it's fun to get started and I'm really looking forward to a new season. I've only felt commitment from the management in Calgary and my teammates and that helps for sure. It will be fun to get back to my everyday life. I have missed it very much.