My mom chose MAID in September 2021, a scheduled date for her to die which was the worst two weeks of my life.
I can't really explain what it was like the day of, because it was such a surreal experience.
She was bedridden, always on pain meds, but 100% lucid so to me, it seemed wrong and I had trouble processing it all. I pushed the anger down because it was what she wanted and I didn't want to ruin it. She had everyone she loved around her - looked us each in the eye and said goodbye and that was it.
It wasn't what I wanted but ultimately it's her decision to die on her terms and I think I've come to accept that. But #### me what a trip it was. Not sure I've offered anything of worth here but my experience. Felt good to type out though.
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