Personally, I think this points to a lack of ability to separate emotions in every day life, not just sports.
I recommend you see a therapist and talk about stresses in your life, managing self expectations, and just your feelings in general. Sounds like you could use a good, listening ear with good advice. Most health plans will pay for this now, at least a few sessions worth.
There is no shame at all in seeing someone to talk, even if you're not entirely sure what you're going to talk about. As someone who has been on the other end, it can help in ways you wouldn't at all anticipate.
All the best!
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