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I've gone through a couple of phases like that, I think the common thing for them for me was there was just too much stuff. Too many things going on, too much time spent doing things, to many things to focus on.

I just turned 50 and I find my tolerance for having lots of things going on has decreased over the years.

When I was younger I could handle lots of rental properties and house flips and being involved in different things, and when things were challenging like job problems with me then my wife or raising a kid with Aspergers I could handle it and feel like I was still doing what I wanted... but over time it all really started to drain me and over time I've just had to start removing things until I found the level I could manage. Professional help has definitely been instrumental in helping get through the hard times.

Now that I've been there for a bit I've been able to do some things I couldn't before. I'm at the point where I want to maybe start adding some things but adding different things, things I think will make me happy rather than things that I expect of my self or I think others expect of me. Or changing things that before I felt like I couldn't change because of what others might think.