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Originally Posted by TheoFleury
I've learned that I'm destined to be alone. I wasted my youth on a job that ####ed me over and a wife who fell out of love with me. Lost touch with all my former friends. Mid life crisis. Don't know what to do. 2 kids that I love but she keeps them from me. Mentally ill too so there's that. Living in poverty despite a good wage, crushing child support and debt from the marriage. Car engine went and used cars are literally non-existent and a new car is just more crushing debt. I make $32/hour and I'm walking and cabbing everywhere. So much bitter anger. Don't know why I'm posting this here. Just done. Finally sober after a two decade struggle. Not because of a heroic struggle but because even drinking provides no joy for me anymore.
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Maaaan… sounds like a real wringer so far… dude. Hard as it seems there has to be a “bottom”. Gotta stop the drain of money physical and mental resources. But it doesn’t happen over night. Sounds like you have already identified a few areas you can improve on… and that’s actually a good thing.
Somehow gotta figure out what you ARE in control of, what you can and must do positively. That could be small free things like looking at money management, notes to your kids and calls, finding some type of community or group (even if temporary or a support group), working on mental Health, getting and keeping a reasonable set of positive habits and daily schedule.