Awww, come on guys, finding love is awesome. That weak feeling in your knees when you see them, the excitment around everything, the gittyness, the firsts, the newness of it all... I love it!
The problem isn't finding love, it's keeping love.
I have a serious, serious, SERIOUS fear of commitment. Yep, I am ashamed that I have hurt many guys that did not deserve it because of my own short-commings. But I've tried everything, and I feel like I get suffocated whenever I get close to someone. I've been dating someone since last April, and it's been long-distance since October. I'm starting to get that "dine and ditch" feeling... And I can't help but feel sorry for him, because underneath it all, I love him. The thing is, I can see myself getting married one day and I definately want kids, just not right now.
But I guess what I'm trying to say is embrace your singleness and your freedom! Don't mope around wishing you were with someone, live for yourself! You want to travel? Go travel! Flirt with the pool boy, see what you want to see. You have the rest of your life to be married, you only have now to be your own person.
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