I'm in a good place now. But I feel like I'm at a cross-roads with my job. I've been doing it for 13 years and l feel like I want a change. At the same time I know I should be grateful to still be employed, but sometimes I feel like that's a cop out so employees can be treated poorly by management. ''Suck it up, someone else will do it for less''. I hate that attitude and it seems to run rampant in my company and the industry I work in as a whole. If anything, the company should be grateful to US for being loyal during the hard times.
I want to transfer to another group and am actively looking to do so. It's not that I hate my job. I love the people I work with and I'm lucky enough to travel to some cool places. But I just feel like I want a change, and the idea has been festering in my head for a while now, and won't go away. I know it's not going to go away until I do something about it.
However it's like a catch 22. My girlfriend and I plan on having her move in with me in the fall. We've been doing long distance for a while now, as she was finishing her Masters. We're committed to each other and want to make it work. But the Visa process is pretty hardcore for her to come here, tons of hoops to jump through. There's also no guarantee it will work the first time we try. I'm lucky that I get a ton of vacation time off, so it's been easy to go visit her regularly. At the same time, it almost makes me feel like I'm 'trapped' at my job because I know I won't get as much time off if I change jobs, and possibly our relationship could suffer if we don't see each other as often. So we've talked about it and I've decided that I'll stick with this job until she comes here. Once she's here, I can seriously start looking around for something else I want to do.
I know I should be grateful because I know my situation is nowhere near as bad as others. I'm lucky to live the life I do. Honestly if my biggest worry in life now is trying to figure out how to transfer to another work group and have my girlfriend move in, I think I'm in pretty good shape.
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