I'm not sure how long ago it was 2 maybe 3 weeks ago now. I let stress get the better of me and I had a slip up. I can say with certainty that single smoke made me feel so light headed and just gross that it solidified my resolve to beat this stupid addiction.
I beat myself up over my slip up but I did realize that my lapse in will power was a benefit. I figure my last encounter with cigarettes made me feel so gross that's what I remember now. Not the "good" feelings I thought a smoke gave me. Now I don't really long for a smoke nor do I envy smokers in the least.
Now I feel im in a maintenance mode. Keep my new habits in place, don't fall back into my old ones. Keep positive and do my best to avoid stress.
In general I do find my tastes are changing quite a bit. Oddly for me I seem to be craving more and more veggies. I hated veggies before. So I had told myself that once I feel comfortable being a non smoker I will turn my attention to my weight. I have set a goal of a 100 - 150lb weight loss. Before I throw myself into the gym I have to make sure my lungs are healed from my lung infection that started all of this for me. I have been for a sleep apnea test and turns out I have pretty severe sleep apnea. I have a follow up with the sleep clinic and my doc at the end of the month where I will explore the surgery. I am young (38) and I figure the lifetime cost of the sleep apnea machine and the general annoyance of that machine at least warrant a discussion with my doc about the surgery.
All in all I feel great and I am looking forward to beginning my weight loss journey next.
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