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PugnaciousIntern · 11-07-2018, 02:05 PM

I haven't been feeling quite right for the last year.

Something was off. It was like I was living in a fog. I tried to describe this feeling to my family but they either couldn't, or wouldn't, understand. The loneliness was the worst part. Like nobody understood my indescribable suffering. They soon became tired of my constant obsession, and I was alienated from family gatherings. Apparently I was a bad influence on the younger children. I missed birthday parties, weddings, and holidays. This last Thanksgiving was rock bottom. They cooked two turkeys; one for everybody, and then delivered one to me. I ate a full 10lb turkey by myself over the course of the next week.

I can't count the number of doctors that I went to. Specialists kept coming up with rare and unusual diseases. Fibromyalgia, Lyme Disease, early onset dementia. It was like everyone had an opinion, but nobody had the answer. I wanted to walk right out of those offices, but I listened. Listening was all I could do. Because nothing seemed to help.

I changed up my bedtime routine. I started flossing after brushing my teeth. It was a little tough to get used to at first, but I managed. No cavities in a whole year, so I think it was effective. I even went from waxed to unwaxed floss, to really shock my system. And it sure was a new experience. But it didn't help the overall picture.

I stopped exercising. I knew sitting on a couch was bad for me, but I just had no interest in it. Even watching athletics became difficult. I used to love watching Flames games and reading opinions and analysis of the team on CP, but even that became unappealing. I would log in from time to time to see what what going on with the team, but nothing felt like it did before. I longed for the familiarity.

Until the breakthrough. While checking on CP today, I noticed a thread. "Janko Troubles". I didn't think much of it at first. Such a simple title. But I clicked the link, and it brought me to dozens of debating posts about the enigma of Mark Jankowski. And what started as a glimmer of hope soon rose within me to euphoria. For too long, I had been living without healthy doses of Jankowski debate. I can't believe it took me so long to realize that this was all that had been missing in my life.

Thank you CP for giving me my life back.

11-07-2018, 02:05 PM	#45
PugnaciousIntern First Line Centre Join Date: Jul 2014 Exp:	I haven't been feeling quite right for the last year. Something was off. It was like I was living in a fog. I tried to describe this feeling to my family but they either couldn't, or wouldn't, understand. The loneliness was the worst part. Like nobody understood my indescribable suffering. They soon became tired of my constant obsession, and I was alienated from family gatherings. Apparently I was a bad influence on the younger children. I missed birthday parties, weddings, and holidays. This last Thanksgiving was rock bottom. They cooked two turkeys; one for everybody, and then delivered one to me. I ate a full 10lb turkey by myself over the course of the next week. I can't count the number of doctors that I went to. Specialists kept coming up with rare and unusual diseases. Fibromyalgia, Lyme Disease, early onset dementia. It was like everyone had an opinion, but nobody had the answer. I wanted to walk right out of those offices, but I listened. Listening was all I could do. Because nothing seemed to help. I changed up my bedtime routine. I started flossing after brushing my teeth. It was a little tough to get used to at first, but I managed. No cavities in a whole year, so I think it was effective. I even went from waxed to unwaxed floss, to really shock my system. And it sure was a new experience. But it didn't help the overall picture. I stopped exercising. I knew sitting on a couch was bad for me, but I just had no interest in it. Even watching athletics became difficult. I used to love watching Flames games and reading opinions and analysis of the team on CP, but even that became unappealing. I would log in from time to time to see what what going on with the team, but nothing felt like it did before. I longed for the familiarity. Until the breakthrough. While checking on CP today, I noticed a thread. "Janko Troubles". I didn't think much of it at first. Such a simple title. But I clicked the link, and it brought me to dozens of debating posts about the enigma of Mark Jankowski. And what started as a glimmer of hope soon rose within me to euphoria. For too long, I had been living without healthy doses of Jankowski debate. I can't believe it took me so long to realize that this was all that had been missing in my life. Thank you CP for giving me my life back.