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direwolf · 10-02-2018, 02:24 PM

Sorry to hear about your troubles, Captain. I've been going through a bit of depression myself over this past year. I moved to Vancouver three years ago to go back to school and try to re-invent myself in a new career, but it's been a struggle. Documentary filmmaking doesn't exactly pay the bills when you're just starting out, so a second full-time job is essential just to make ends meet. I was unemployed for several months, which isn't easy to take as a 43-year old. It didn't help that Vancouver is a very expensive city to live in and the job hunt felt like an oppressive grind at times.

I went through a bad stretch for a while there where I felt embarrassed about my situation and I started to doubt myself and my abilities. I didn't want to be around people for a while...even family members. There were days when I was barely able to get out of bed and I basically cut myself off from humanity like Obi-Wan Kenobi (or Last Jedi-era Skywalker). It wasn't healthy at all.

The good news is that I finally landed a decent job a few weeks ago and my overall mood and feeling of self-worth has significantly improved. It's just good to be around people again and to have a regular schedule/routine, and a reason to leave the house. I agree that loneliness is an animal that can devour us. Human beings need each other, and it's never healthy to cut yourself off from others.

Keep you chin up, dude. Things will get better for you, I can feel it. As mentioned above, you've got friends here at CP if you ever need to vent.

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direwolf Franchise Player Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: North Vancouver Exp:	Sorry to hear about your troubles, Captain. I've been going through a bit of depression myself over this past year. I moved to Vancouver three years ago to go back to school and try to re-invent myself in a new career, but it's been a struggle. Documentary filmmaking doesn't exactly pay the bills when you're just starting out, so a second full-time job is essential just to make ends meet. I was unemployed for several months, which isn't easy to take as a 43-year old. It didn't help that Vancouver is a very expensive city to live in and the job hunt felt like an oppressive grind at times. I went through a bad stretch for a while there where I felt embarrassed about my situation and I started to doubt myself and my abilities. I didn't want to be around people for a while...even family members. There were days when I was barely able to get out of bed and I basically cut myself off from humanity like Obi-Wan Kenobi (or Last Jedi-era Skywalker). It wasn't healthy at all. The good news is that I finally landed a decent job a few weeks ago and my overall mood and feeling of self-worth has significantly improved. It's just good to be around people again and to have a regular schedule/routine, and a reason to leave the house. I agree that loneliness is an animal that can devour us. Human beings need each other, and it's never healthy to cut yourself off from others. Keep you chin up, dude. Things will get better for you, I can feel it. As mentioned above, you've got friends here at CP if you ever need to vent. Last edited by direwolf; 10-02-2018 at 02:32 PM.