[CaptainCrunch]

You know, I'm going to wax on a bit, sorry about that. But I'm sitting up, not interested at all in sleeping. Tomorrow I'm going to a memorial service for a colleague and a friend who with his wife and a young girl was taken out of this world by an angry person with a fire arm.

I've come to the realization over about the last week, that I'm not ok with it, I'm not ok with a lot of things, and that angry person with a gun has created loss and anger and destruction, not only for the victims, but their families and the people that knew them.

I find it funny that I represent a paradox, I should be a gun guy, I spent a few years in the army, and was around them every day, I was trained to be safe with them, to use them effectively and I was trained in what they do. But I'm not and never have been a gun guy because my confessional here is that guns frighten me. Not in the use of them, not in a fear that I'm going to blow my foot off when I'm cleaning one. But that small hole at the end of the barrel is an incredible engine of destruction in the wrong hands. That once that trigger is pulled, whether you mean it or not, it can't be recalled.

That a gun while it has its uses for hunting, or target shooting is in the wrong hands death.

I've had the argument here that I don't believe in guns for home defense, the margin for error is too huge. I've said before that a gun in the wrong hands creates a sense of false bravery, and things can go off of the rails and as soon as you point it at someone you lose a little bit of control over the fates of yourself and the person your aiming at.

I'm the person that thinks that realistically guns belong in the hands of those that are well trained, and well reasoned. I believe that guns belong in the hands of the police and the army.

Over the last couple of weeks, every shooting has really effected me and gave me a sense of anger that I don't really like to feel. Its ugly and its cold and its really sucked the color out of the room for me, but I'll heal, a person that gets shot by some nut with a gun, or a gang member or someone with a lot of anger, usually they don't heal, they're dead. That's the ugly truth

Now, I don't believe that a ban on hand guns is going to do a whole lot of good, I do believe that obviously we have to look at the root causes that cause people to use guns for profit or revenge, or to feel like they are more then they are.

But I also believe in justice, justice is not vengeance, but I have no sympathy for someone that picks up a gun and shoots another human for any reason. And I have this theory that once you've shown your willing to cross that line and take a life, its going to get easier to make that decision in the future. A component of justice is the safety of the population, so the ultimate justice would be to lock those that use a gun to kill away, the ultimate justice is that those that sell weapons illegally for profit should never see the light of day.

You can say that we're different then the States, that we can stand up on a podium and look down our noses at the States and their level of gun violence, but this should never be a debate about numbers unless your a Stalinist.

10 is a tragedy, 1000 is a statistic, that to me is a false argument, even one is too many.