Few things scare me. I don't often flinch in horror movies and people on occasion think I saw through their jump scare pranks. I don't like gore and a few horror attributes, but they don't scare me. Death doesn't really scare me either.
Pain and sadness to family and friends drives me into a rage, but I don't know if I am as afraid of it as the next thing I mention:
Becoming incapable. Whether due to age or accident.
In comparison to many of you, I am quite young. But I've been struggling with memory issues and the body on occasion has told me, "You can't do that like you used to." or noticing that my depth perception has been a bit off for the last few years. I can't help but have this nagging idea that one day, instead of being able to help everyone as I currently do, I will have to rely on others. Being taken care of by AI isn't a big deal to me. I don't fear AI, but the idea of being bed ridden and taken care of by family or having someone wiping my ass is just...
That fear alone opened my eyes in regards to the discussion on euthanasia. I'm not sure if I'd go that far if I was incapable, but I can see why others want that option.
I'm the type to fight through things. I'd definitely do my best not to rely on others, but if many years pass and I am not capable... I am irrationally afraid of contemplating the crossing of that bridge.
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