You sound exactly like how I felt in my last two years of university, so I hold nothing against you for feeling that way. Infact, I congratulate you for finding this out - it's hard to admit to yourself that this is the way you feel. When I was in Haskayne, I always felt like that towards the end of it all.
I suppose my advice is that you're in no rush - do the things you want to do NOW, but realize that you should finish school. Take it from someone who is now done - being in school is actually fun, in retrospect. It wasn't real life. You get to meet people, call your own schedule with the courses you want to take, and put off the mundane working world for just a few years. I wish I was back in.
You SHOULD go travelling. I told myself I was going travelling two years ago, and now I'm finally leaving this Saturday for Down Under. I'm not the biggest travelling fan either - I love my bed, and I love Calgary, and I have come tor realize that in the past few months, almost like i never want to leave. However, I know that going down there can only make me stronger, and learn to fend for myself, but also to enlighten me in ways that school or work could never do. While I'm taking a pessimistic approach to it right now, I'm sure once I go down there everything will change, and regardless of what happens, I'll come back in four months and truly believe I needed to do it to prove to myself I could do it.
Perhaps you'll find that for yourself someday. For now, I would go with what your instinct and/or gut tells you - it's never wrong.
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