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Originally Posted by Kidder
I didn't choose who I was attracted to. If I accepted what I was inundated with growing up the guilt and self-hate would have overwhelmed and killed me. It still might. I'm fighting to overcome the damage and trying to live a happy life. Thank you to those who have listened, respected and altered their voices over the last decade. It's helped me and many others I'm sure. God bless.
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I used to be that guy. The Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve ######bag. I was hardcore conservative. Expel the illegals, you're poor because you deserve it etc. At one point I even advocated that Liberals should be executed for treason. I bought into that crap hook line and sinker. There wasn't a specific moment that turned the tide, but I eventually grew out of it. The kicker is that I wasn't even religious at all, but I still used the Adam and Eve thing like a religious mantra. I was young, self hating and desperately needed to look at others as inferior or undeserving to make myself feel better. The religious conservative attitude spoke to me like a drug even though I didn't believe in the whole god thing. At this point in my life I actually cannot believe that I ever felt that way, and it's not something that I admit too often.