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Let me preface this by saying, by making this thread in no way am I looking for any sympathies; however, if others have or are going through what I am perhaps you can offer some advice.

I've been smoking pot for about 5-6 years now. It started off recreationally with a few friends in university and it slowly has been getting worse and worse to the point where I am dependent on it. I'll wake up and smoke a joint, after work I'll smoke, after dinner I'll smoke again and then of course right before bed to help me sleep. Sometimes I'll even wake up at 3 or 4 in the morning, have a hit and go back to bed.

Well enough is enough. Today is the day I finally take back that control and get my life back. I'm tired of being reliant on a single substance that has been affecting my life for all these years. Marijuana has affected my personal life, my health, my mood and of course my interactions with others. I spend on average $200 a month, I'm constantly paranoid as to whether or not my eyes are red or if I smell, I have decreased memory, always feel lazy, avoid social situations, I'm constantly lying to my family and friends about my habit as well as always having to "clear" my throat thanks to all the build up from smoking to name a few symptoms.

I feel that with the support of CP and of course my friends that I will be able to break this habit before I'm 30 years old, single, alone and constantly thinking about when I can smoke next. It took a lot to admit to myself that I have a problem and no matter what anyone says you can get addicted to marijuana.

Hopefully this will be the stepping stone I need to rid myself of this disease and move on with my life. I know the next few months or going to be super hard but to quote a famous saying "What doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger"

Cheers