So most of you know I am waiting on surgery to have my gallbladder out. Still no date yet as I have had prior surgery on my stomach from a car accident and he wants to do a CAT scan to see if laparoscopic is possible, he is thinking it will not be which means open surgery the old way. Personally I don't care, bigger scar, more recovery time, whoop dee doo, get this damn thing out of me, but I keep having the same dream once a night that I go in and get the open done and I don't come out of the anethesia. I can see my body lying there and it has been days and I am not breathing on my own, won't come back to consciousness, and they end up pulling the plug. I never get recurring dreams, ever. I think it is just from the stress of trying to work through these stupid attacks and waiting, I just want it done. I don't believe in premonition dreams. It is unsettling though.
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