[Yamer]

After getting all of maybe 2-3 hours of discontinuous sleep, and basically walking around like a zombie after hearing my alarm this morning, I decided to take the day off. Trouble is, I kind of regret it. I know it would have given me something to do to take my mind off of everything, but I also know I wouldn't have done the place any good (and probably dragged some happy people down into my depression). I drove a family member to the dentist, just so that I could get out of the house, and even though waiting in reception consisted of listening to phones going off, receptionists chatting, and a baby crying I was content for that 1/2 hour simply because I wasn't being reminded of everything at home.

I just feel a sort of "all-over" awful right now, and I really, really wish I could sleep for a little while...but every time I'm about to doze off I'm overwhelmed with grief. I'm glad it was quick for him, but at the same time it was so sudden that I didn't really get the opportunity to say the good-bye I had always intended.

After visiting the dentist's office I stopped by the Vet clinic and picked up the paw print we had requested. It's a beautifully done memorial, and helped me shed a bit more ocular fluid I apparently didn't need.

Thanks for all your support, I truly appreciate the kind words and encouragement. Right now I'm just completely unsure what to do with myself. Memories everywhere I look.