Hey CP,
I'll start by saying this is a very personal post, but I wanted to throw it up on here to see if anyone else has gone through something like similar.
To start, some may wonder what an existential crisis is...from wiki:
An existential crisis is a moment at which an individual questions the very foundations of their life: whether their life has any meaning, purpose or value. Usually, it provokes the sufferer's introspection about personal mortality, thus revealing the psychological repression of said awareness.
Back to my own story, in the last few months I have had a number of things come up in my life that may have triggered this. I just turned 30, I had a long trip to Europe coming up (I hate flying) and numerous regular pressures of life. It cumulated in a panic attack and anxiety over a couple of months which has been very unlike me, almost as if I am in a strangers body.
My thoughts over the last few months have been all over the map. Questioning life, death, faith, purpose and being utterly terrified of my own mortality. I actually thought I may have been going crazy, or possibly depressed. Little things like the nightly news or an actor passing away, seemed to affect me 1000x more then it ever used to. I would stay awake late at night pondering philosophy, the universe and my own delicate fate. (P.s. Google in these situations is generally the worst thing you can do)
The more I learn and read about the whole thing the, the more it would appear that most people go through this at some point of there lives. It is actually somewhat comforting to know that others think and worry about the same thing. Many compare it to the great "mid-life" crisis in terms of impact.
I found this article pretty funny as well:
http://www.buzzfeed.com/catadamson/2...al-crisis-dk49
Anyway, just wanted to reach out to the community I have been a part in for 5 years now and see if anyone else has gone through something like this....