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Originally Posted by ClubFlames
Wow. That is just messed up. Maybe use those fistful of dollars to seek some professional help so you can live a happy life. Get away from people who use you for those fistful of dollars and seek someone who wants to be in a relationship with you and not with your money. Seems like you have made the wrong choice yourself by being in a relationship with these kind of people and the only thing you can think of is "I can't wait till my parents die so I can commit suicide so I can get away from them"
Get help seriously.
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LOL, it's not like that at all.
My point is, in 10-20 something years when my folks are gone, and if I am still alone, I will have nobody left in my life that gives a crap on a personal level. I really don't see the point of living a miserable lonely life if I have nobody left. The most important thing about being human, is having those relationships, without them, you aren't living, you are just existing. I can't seem to ever make them work, and I work to much and am too tired when I am done to seek out new ones. The only thing I really enjoy anymore, is my work, which is sadly, what has cost me any chance of finding anyone. And to be honest, most people have become so narcissistic, I don't really feel I am missing out on much anymore.
I think there is a big difference between being depressed, and not wanting to live past your usefulness. I am not happy, but I am also not depressed. I don't want to die, but I don't want live a life without any companionship.
It seems messed up, I know. But I am content in existing for now, but I can totally see where this guy is coming from. He wore out his usefulness and purpose, and felt he would be better off in the recycle bin. I find something strangely poetic about it.