Swear to the good that the closest thing I have ever had to a religious experience was when I was walking home one night from a bar and happened to stop and overlook san francisco for a bit just to take it all in. This happened to pop up on my shuffle and I just felt so calm and collected.
I have had a comparably privileged and have recently been questioning what I was doing, am I actually going to take advantage of my blessings and make my parents proud (ugh). For what ever reason, at that exact moment, it just struck me how by becoming worried about success and failure that I was actually inhibiting myself because I was so worried about the endpoint that I was giving no thought to what I actually want to do.
This rant is now over, but I have to say I wish I had the natural confidence of some people, people tell me I am smart and should be successful and blah blah. I wish that I felt the same most days.
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