[Tower]

I have something to add. Take it for what it is worth.

I have been a non-believer almost all my life. Even as a child I didn't believe the stories. I still don't.
2005 has been the hardest year of my life and I'm very proud of how I have handled myself and how I have grown. I'd say I've found something - it's not concrete - it's not proven and perhaps it was in me all along. I still don't believe in whole organization of Christian views. I do believe there is something there.

Okay a flakey story will be inserted here --> I was probably at my lowest point in my life early/mid 2005 - I lost just about everything - family (divorce)/friends (due to divorce - that pesky choosing side crap), I saw my kids very rarely and affording a lawyer is pretty much a no go at my wage. (Insert violin here) - The reason I'm saying this is just a brief incite to where I was.
One night I had an awful nightmare with demons - and I was battling them alone. I was getting tired and run down and they started defeating me. I woke up and in the mirror right next to was my great grandfather who passed away when I was 13. He had a smile on his face and then disappeared. I believe he was there helping me. The next dream I remember I was walking down the sidewalk and a bus stops - the doors open and it's Jesus. He said "Get on" And I did. After that night I started to do everything differently - it was a slow change but by Sept I became #1 in my company over 1050 employees.

Maybe I just saw something that my mind created. I like to think I'm being helped by the people who love me and want to see me reach my potential with my children and my goals. Something was there, and I saw my great-grandfather - I didn't have a great relationship with him. I did, however, with my grandfather. I think if it was to have been from my mind I'd have seen my grandpa instead.

Since I have opened my heart more to a belief, even if it's not the bibles teachings, and not believing in fact (because what happened to me can't be proven) good things have been happening. If it was not a good thing that was happening to me I spun it to become a good thing. I can write a story about it. Does it make it any less powerful like the stories in the bible? Can we just use them as stories to teach a lesson? Maybe we are being too much like adults and looking into Jesus too much. Jesus to me is a tool to use and aid us in love, forgiveness, and respect.