I think Mustard's right. My Uncle was close to death for awhile and we had a conversation about this. He said that everyone that came to see him in the hospital was constantly doting on him and trying to say all the right things all the time; they weren't being themselves. All it did was keep his imminent death in the forefront of his mind all day. It just made him feel like he was just playing out the stretch and going through the motions.
Weirdly enough, he looked forward to visits from his ex-wife's brother more than anyone else. He'd come in and just shoot the #### about the Blue Bombers, talk about some dumb #### he did while drinking, and basically act like one of the people in the conversation didn't have tubes sticking out of him and a ticking time bomb in his chest. My Uncle said it was pretty much the only time he felt like he was still really alive.
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