FLAMESRULE I am in a very similar situation right now.
I have had such good times when i've been drinking though. When I think back to all the fun times I have had in my life, back in university, or travelling, or summers back in Calgary, most of them have been when I was drunk. I just associate good times with drinking. But I don't really have that much fun anymore, the novelty has worn off and I more or less just end up feeling really guilty and am mad at myself, and I'll say to myself for the millionth time that this is the very last time I drink, then two days later I'll be back at it. It's pathetic.
Meeting up with the fellas? Pitcher of beer.
Watching literally any sporting event? Pitcher of beer.
I find myself in situations where I am ALWAYS drinking. It makes it even harder for me as I am a bartender and being in the "Industry" going out and mingling and drinking is what it's all about. Not to mention I feel like I am more confident at bars when I'm drunk. I'm better with conversations, approaching women, joking. Now i'm not sure if this is an illusion of alcohol or if it is the truth but this is why I do it! Along with the fact that all my friends LOVE me when I'm out getting drunk, doing stupid things, making them laugh. When I make my friends laugh it feels good! And this usually happens when i'm drunk. Not to mention that when I'm sober around my friends im finding that I am a lot more quiet, unresponsive that how I used to be.
Now I am at a very similar stage where I am slowly starting to think I have a problem. I will say to my friends "Guys I am really gonna try and take a break from the booze" and their response is always something along the lines of "ya right man, we'll see how that goes". Now that's fair because this is up to me, not my friends, I just need to get the will power to actually say no to booze.
Not to mention that I actually love booze. Like I love scotch, I love beers, I love classic cocktails, I could drink a thousand Negronis. I just feel like I wouldn;t be able to give it up, and at this point I haven't. I want to though.
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