For me the question of is there or is there not a god, didn't mean that much. I was more concerned with why am I here and how can I find some peace. One of the first hints I got was to 'know thyself' from Socrates so I tried examining my self. It didn't work to well so I started reading some eastern religions, some dingbat books and some writings that led me down a garden path. I also started experimenting with drugs which showed me there may be more happening then my regular senses knew about, so I started to look at some religions like Bahai, Hinduism and Buddhism and even Christianity. A lot of what I saw, I couldn't connect with or I felt the leaders were charlatans. Anyways I did eventually find a way to know myself and I found my peace, which I hope everyone does.
Calling this thing god, being raised as an atheist, doesn't always rest easy with me because my mind can't really label it but it is a power that rules me and this world. Well it does rule but not in the way that I might normally think. It's more like nature has it's seasons and it's days and nights. It's a rhythm that goes at it's own pace and it's up to me to try and be a part of this rhythm.
As for the Bible setting moral standards when so much of it seems to condone injustices I try to take another lesson from it and separate the wheat from the chaff. The wheat to me is 'the golden rule'. This isn't an original from Jesus but has been said in one form or another in pretty much every religion on this planet.
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