[Jordan!]

All I know is that medication isn't the answer to your problems. You'd need to re-train your brain over a long period of time through meditation and physical activity which helps you naturally relax.

You need to be very disciplined, patient and find a certain spirituality about trying to find peace and serenity.

I recommend, "The Art of Happiness" by the Dalai Llamma. It's a great read just to understand life, why you feel the way you do, and how to look at it from the outside looking inward.

The only thing you need to understand right this moment is that, no matter how well you train yourself to be comfortable with having a Anxiety/panic disorder, and how much you can control it. It will always exist in some form, basically you train yourself to react to such flare ups of anxiety to the point you hardly acknowledge it. For me, the panic wouldn't even be the situation that caused the panic, it was me panicking, while resisting my natural fight/flight response.

Somethings to think about.