You can't live your life as a slave to everyone else's emotions. Being a friend is one thing, being a pushover is another. If you think that dude offed himself because you didn't rent drums and play with him, you need to realize that there were probably ten other things in his life that were worse than that (or so he felt) and jamming would have been a temporary high to distract him from the despair he was feeling.
In other words, jamming would have maybe postponed the suicide, but it would have done nothing to stop it. So you can't carry the guilt. I know it's easy for me, an anonymous internet poster to say, but seriously... It ain't your fault.
IMO, the real tragedy when someone commits suicide is the guilt that friends and family are left feeling. I'm sure sometimes it's justified, but most of the time it's not. In this case, it's not. Flameswin, again, it's not your fault. You were neither the cause or even the catalyst. It is a bit freaky to have been so close to someone that does this, but it doesn't make it your fault.
Like Cow said, it's likely that you'll know a few people over the years that do this. Some will be closer to you, some will just be associates, it's a fact of life. Maybe I'm numb to it now because off the top of my head I can recall 4 people that were fairly close that have killed themselves. All 4 were senseless. There was no real despair. They must have been mentally ill or something. Something that wasn't visible on the surface. Something that a doctor needed to prescribe meds for. Not a one of them would still be here if their friend jammed with them.
Not.Your.Fault.
Feel sad. Don't feel guilty.
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