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Originally Posted by Daradon
Everything you do is a choice.
Yes there is pre disposition. Yes there are chemicals that can pull you.
But with so many people struggling, I can't feel bad for someone who makes the decision they can't struggle anymore.
And yes, I've been there.
I never would have wanted anyone to feel bad for me. To say, what could we have done? It wasn't attention, it was just an end to the pain.
If this is a disease, so is alcoholism. (which it's not)
Yeah you're (not you, the proverbial you) predisposed. But you still know you're options. In the terms of alcoholism, you know right from wrong and when you put others in danger.
Western society makes death a bad thing, and so it makes suicide a very bad thing.
It has been used in cultures since the beginnings of time.
What is special about 'life', is that it struggles, it finds a way to be. If this portion of life decides it doesn't want to do that, it's probably right.
And again, I'm not saying this is a bad thing or sad thing. It's a decision that I respect.
Depression is a terrible condition. But it's not a disease.
There are still options within it.
Cancer patients, do not have options.
I was born with a serious heart condition (along with being diagnosed with depression, so yeah, I know the difference) and I remember all the sick heart kids and sick cancer kids who had NO choice. Less of a battle than those with depression.
So sorry. I've lived it. Both sides. And I don't buy it.
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Unless you have been to the brink of suicide where the only thing that saved me was the lack of enough pills in the bottle, you will never understand.
It was not my choice to end my life - period!
My sense of logic was gone by that time. The incredible emotional pain i was feeling was so strong that i wasn't thinking straight. I needed outside intervention but never got it as no one heard or took serious my cries for help seriously. The pain became all encompassing that i saw no solutions or a way out of that pain.
Death became the solution as that was the only thought that took away the emotional pain. After i swallowed those pills i felt such a wonderful sense of peace - one that i've never felt before - as i knew it would soon be over. Rational minded people don't do this!
Later after getting medical and psychological treatment i was horrified at just how close i came to ending my life. I live with that painful memory everyday!
So please don't tell me it was a choice!
I love life and want to live as long as possible!