I often feel like Peter in office space. What would you do if you had a million dollars? I'd do nothing...
My values system is at least explicitly detached from accomplishment. If I complete a project and do it well, my main feeling is relief rather than accomplishment. The thought "now I can just do nothing for a couple days" is what I gain the most pleasure from. The high of personal accomplishment that people are always telling me about seems rare and fleeting to me. Although I probably do value accomplishment more than I sometimes think.
I have stretches of motivation of like a couple weeks (at the beginning of the school year, starting a project etc.) and then I lose it all completely.
And just go back to the same ole me.
I guess it's a two-sided coin because if you are always motivated to be better, you can never be satisfied with what you have. I would say I'm fairly easily satisfied and therefore my drive is quite lacking.
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