Originally Posted by Prottotype
I'm totally opening up myself here, so I would appreciate any comments moving forward to be constructive, and towards the topic.
Over the last few months, I've had a really hard time coping with the idea of death. Not so much in a suicidal manner, quite the opposite actually. It kinda goes hand in hand with the thread about brains thinking too much when you're trying to sleep, as mine does that, but then it seems to stray to the topic of my own demise, and I have minor panic attacks.
Now, I'm not skitziod or anything. I know that it's something that everyone faces. I've had people close to me pass, and I cope, and move on, but I can't help freaking myself out when it comes to my own eventual end.
Maybe it's the part of me that doesn't understand the logic. We're here, and then we have to not exist anymore. That just doesn't make sense to me. I'm not religious. I need proof if there's something more. As it stands right now, I haven't experienced anything I believe to extend life, be it on earth or wherever.
I am even starting to freak out about the eventual passing of my parents, hopefully not in the near future, but in the future none the less. I've never know anything different then to have them at a phone call away, at the furthest.
I'm not depressed, as far as I know. I'm a happy father of a 6 month old son, I'm happily married, have great friends, and as you can tell, a family who's very close to me.
I've talked to family, friends, etc about this, and how they deal with it. But have never gotten an answer that I've felt comfortable with. I just want to cope, and not live the rest of my life in fear of something I'm not going to be able to control.
I do feel a little bit better for putting it out there... at least.
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