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Originally Posted by Dion
It doesn't matter how the act is done someone is going to be affected. Wether it be the C Train driver or family and friends.
When i swallowed those bottle of pills when i was 18 my mind wasn't focusing on how my act would affect family and friends and the intense grief it would cause. All I felt was incredible emotional pain, to a point where there was no light at the end of the tunnel - no hope. I knew that when the pills had done their job the pain i felt would no longer be there. That and the incredible sense of peace that years of suffering would be over.
Thankfully there wasn't enough pills in the bottle and i survived.
Months later after getting help i was horrified at what i tried to do and the grief and pain i would have inflicted on my family and friends. I'm in my 40's now and I am haunted by that memory every single day. To think i came that close to ending my life.
I understand that you wanted to agree to disagree. I just thought i'd offer a first hand experience.
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A: I'm glad that there weren't enough pills in that bottle
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B: My best girl friend tried to kill herself and fortunately was unsuccessful. After being there with her, IMO, it's harder to actually do the deed yourself and that's why people look to doing it in other ways (jumping in front of cars/trains). I don't think they have the intention of making someone else feel guilty by being involved indirectly but just don't have the emotional strength to do it themselves (hanging themselves, cutting their wrists etc). Anyways, I agree with the person who said that I wish other people didn't have to be involved if the unfortunate incidents had to happen in the first place, but that's me speaking from a clear state of mind. I've never been in that position so I guess my opinion on the matter isn't as valuable as to one's who has.